When we don't understand....

Tragedy hit our home Tuesday morning when after a visit to the doctor and some blood work we were told we were in the midst of a miscarriage. Neither Mark nor myself have really suffered a loss like this before. My great grandmother died a few years ago but she was elderly and sick so it was kind of expected. It wasn't easy, but I understood what was going on. This is a different story. Just as we were shocked to find out we were pregnant, we were shocked to learn we were no longer going to be bringing a new baby home in November. This has been the toughest couple of days of my life I do believe. However, I can say with all sincerity that God is still good. He has a plan and I have to trust it. Not only that I want to trust it. If I didn't I would be plagued with anger and questions. I surprised myself; I am sad but I feel extreme peace. God has brought to my attention many scriptures like Ps 61 and 1 Thes 5:18 that tells us to give thanks in all circumstances. We will get through this and I know it will take time but eventually I won't be so sad anymore. Different things bring tears to my eyes. I saw my first obviously pregnant lady yesterday and just started crying. Over the next months as I think about how far along I would be had this not happened, I am sure I will be filled with sadness and tears. Luckily I might not understand but I serve a God who does who is holding me closer than I could ever have imagined during this time. Mark has been wonderful during this tragedy and even though I know he is hurting too he is being the rock I need. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers during this time. We covet them. I am comforted to know that I will see him/her someday for God's word says he knew us even in the womb. I have asked God to give him/her a hug from me and let them know I look forward to the day I get to hug them myself.