A new day...

So, this past week or so has been rough dealing with our miscarriage as well as several other things that have creeped up on us. Monday I went to have my final blood draw to make sure my hormones have come back down to zero, which they have. At that appointment I talked to my doctor about how I have shrunk since high school. I played basketball and they would announce our heights at the start of each game so at the beginning of the year we were measured. I was a good 5 9.5 (we always rounded up to 5 10 for games) :) However, if you were to measure me now, I am a flat 5 7!! Can you believe that?!? 2.5 inches in less than 8 years. :( So I got tested for osteoporosis - at 26!! Sure enough, I have bone loss. The test showed either green, yellow, or red. My age and health should put me in the high green area. However I was nicely in the yellow!! I don't have osteoporosis yet but I do have bone loss which is the first stage. I go this coming Monday for a more detailed test that will check my spine, hips, etc instead of just my ankle. I have been told to take 1200-1500 mg of calcium with VD and do weight bearing exercises like walking, etc. Fun fun!! I haven't told Mark this part yet but I am also supposed to cut down on caffeine and salt....two things that I LOVE!! Not sure when I will make that change. :) I am also trying to get back on the weight loss wagon. Both of my previous pregnancies I was able to eat whatever I wanted and still didn't gain but 10 pounds or so....I already had in my head before the miscarriage that I would get to spend the next 9 months enjoying whatever I wanted....not the case anymore and I am having a hard time adjusting. I don't seem to have motivation. I know I need to especially with the bone loss and having to get my gallbladder out soon too. I have thought about training for a race. At first I thought half marathon but I think that is pushing it a bit.....maybe a 5k first and move up from there. I am going to do a little research. My idea was to run a race in honor of our little baby we won't get to meet until we get to heaven. I thought that might give me the motivation to push through but I need 100% support from my hubby which I haven't gotten yet....we shall see what happens. Anyway, that is all I have for now. I am trying to focus on Jesus through all of these trials and know that He has a plan. Satan is really pressing my thoughts and trying to get me off course....but just like the mercy me song Move says....this burden is getting heavy, but I'm not about to cave...things are gonna change....there's gonna be brighter days!