So....I am not a blogger and this is actually kind of scary for me. However, I need some major accountability. So I thought that if I blogged about my journey it would help me stay on track. As I am thinking about what I am going to say I can't believe I am about to give some pretty personal stats. I made a deal with my hubby that if I could get to my goal weight by his birthday (June 2nd) that I would get $500 towards new clothes. I set my goal at what I weighed when we got married in July 2005. So here it goes: Today I am 172.6 lbs :( and I need to get to 150lbs by June 2nd.
I have always had weight issues. I seem to have no discipline at all!! I love to eat and once a food thought gets into my head, it is like I have to eat it! I hate this part of myself. It makes me depressed and angry. I literally make myself sick when I think about all the binges I have went on. In fact, today hasn't been a very good day. I make a pretty healthy turkey bacon, poached egg, and cheese sandwhich this morning and it was really tasty. However, I started thinking of a pb&j and ended up eating one!! Why?!?? Normally, when I mess up on my diet I end up throwing the rest of the day away. I cannot keep doing that!! I have to stay on track and lose this weight. It will not only help me revamp my clothes, but it will help me be a better wife and mother. That needs to be my #1 priority, to be better at the roles God has given me.
My goal today is to not mess up my diet anymore. I also need to try to find time to be active and not just sit on the couch. I will check back in tomorrow and see where I am at and how I did! :)
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